golden.

so things have been really good lately. maybe my neglect to this blog is a sign of that. i'm not sure!

i haven't been worrying about nonsense like i usually do. not beating myself up over things i can't control and my self-esteem is at a calm, comfortable wavelength.

music is currently dominating my life - like always - but at an enjoyable, no-stress level.

and i think i know why i'm feeling so good and optimistic. or maybe it's a coincidence. either way, i'm golden.

good things to look forward to the next month. yes yes yes.

OH! AND I CANNOT STOP LISTENING TO GASLIGHT'S 'SINK OF SWIM.' DAMN THOSE BOYS.

tunes, lately.

into it. over it.
the great explainer.
algernon cadwallader.
explosions in the sky.

what's next? hitler day with super sales?

Let's celebrate Columbus Day by walking into someone's house and telling them we live there now.

truly bizarre.

truly bizarre.
the only two words to describe last night. and the last two I uttered before passing out on Anthony's floor early this morning.

unchanged faces on unchanged people. the set and scenery are the same. almost untouched since freshman year. but maybe that's just the problem. nothing has changed.

originally, I never wanted to leave that place. but I'm glad I did. I got out.

explain.

...from a stranger.

it's four o clock in the morning
and all you're thinking is "sorry"
there's no use in sleeping in anymore

you left your phone and your wallet
no sunshine left in your pocket
you looked up and down then
drowned your soul in the Hudson
(you drowned your soul in the Hudson)

and to think in this world
it's never been this cold
we're taking too big of steps in the wrong direction

we chase the waves.

This emerging story of 18 year old Tyler Clementi really sickens and saddens me. It's just so tragic, and to post his "farewell" status ("Jumping off the gw bridge sorry") on his facebook page is just a hard kick in the gut.

I feel terrible for his family and even worse for the two kids responsible. They have to live with this heavy heavy guilt for the rest of their lives. I cannot imagine that.

I never knew Tyler yet I really don't know how to express my feelings right now.



Rest in Peace, from a stranger.